Me, is the title :)

as my eyes open after a long dark night its open with a day full of dreams dreams to be someone valuable especially in the eyes of God I really want that and supposed to be all people want that too but they never realize it because the sinful act keeps them away from God what keeps you away from Gods? it's the one that really far from God that is Satan by making you as their puppet for them to have a mate in hell they will do whatever they want too just only by confusing your own desire which the one that become the biggest enemy in the soul of man yeah, it's not Satan who become the biggest enemy it's your own desire the biggest enemy which lie down in yourself for me everyday, I'm trying to remain no sin that's the dream the dream that I never achieve until now i always repeat the same sin but somehow it becomes more as the day goes by it sucks you know it sucks as far as i'm concern i do want to enter heaven a place that ever...

i just noticed that there were no post in February n April.. owh God.. it's not really a big deal but it's make my blog look like incomplete at all for me lahh.. so anyhow, i will write this as the replacement or substitution for the post in February and April.. so as always,  i'm not expecting someone will read my blog.. cause there's no mark that someone ever read my blog and btw, i don't know lahh that what i wrote here going to be something that valuable to any other person life.. hmm, its ok anyway.. but, fyi, at this moment i'm battling with some kind of issue that i have been dealing since my 1st broke up in 2008..yes, this kind of issue really, really change my life..a lot.. so, i just have to be strong..very strong..to settle this in addition, i'm going to have jpj test this thursday..!! owh guys, wish me luck..can't wait to have adriving license..!! see ya..!!

today i'm in fever.. my back..its hurts.. i slept for many hours.. just woke up at 1pm.. its been so long that i have a fever.. i hope this is what i get after making such a much sins.. the sins that i never expected to do at first.. this is me now..man full of sins.. and i try to make no more..no more sins.. the sins that i really hate about..but my desire is favor to do it.. guys.. please, don't ever try anything that u know it's already bad..

Last march, i just declared that i'm still in love with her.. i'm sorry that's because my emotion was in unstable condition.. the truth is.. i already forget about her.. i must to.. because she's not the one..for me.. and i must keep strong.. to continue this journey.. journey of truth love.. for my happiness..and for her (in future) happiness.. this is not the end..trust me.. and for you Kamilah.. although our love already last for almost 6 years.. i never declare it to u, right? ok.. this is my declaration.. my love for u..its gone.. no more..finish..disappear.. hope that ur happy with ur future husband.. no more Noor Kamilah in my life.. seriously, no more..